Sweet....but deadly nightflower

Oh my god, Oh my god, Oh my god!!!!

One week today is my last day of work, one week tomorrow at 10.30am I fly out to Florida, one week on Friday I will be swimming with dolphins, please please please check out this website….every time I look at it I just want to cry! https://www.discoverycove.com/ex_featattract.aspx Its a park that you spend all day in a scuba suit! Argh! Check it out and comment!


Ohh the excitement!

I feel bad tho about leaving Kris behind. Its something I would love to share with him.

SMASHING PUMPKINS! 22nd AUGUST 2007, CARLING ACADEMY...IM THERE!

But it will all be over soon, kinda!

Its pretty hard going until the 8th of May and then I am free to spread my wings for the summer and have lotsa fun and party oh, and to relax! I think my summer holiday is a little too long tho, May till Sept/Oct. Crazy! But that will be my first year over! Phew, only another six to go! lol

Not been up to much at all, reading - fun fun!!!

Been quite down, but like I said I ain't gonna go into it coz Im sure it bores at you liverjournalers to tears lol!

Julie cheered me up, she took me to see Hanson. I don't listen to them anymore, but I was heavy into them in 2000 and I used to listen to them all the time. Hearing them on Sunday was amazing, I can't even describe, I felt so amazing that as soon as I got home I felt real sad that the feeling was gone. I want that feeling all the time, I want to feel happiness and excitment throughout my life but recently Ive started to feel that maybe life is just mundane, and always will be.

I know how sad the paragraph above is, but I don't care! It is all fine!

Anyhooo, I had best go, back to work!

Love you!

My last few entries were a bit, ohhh and ahhh, oh the anguish!!! But things always change blah blah blah! So, Ive decided, I aint gonna write about the bad shit :)

HAPPY HAPPY JOURNAL!!!

Heya!!!

Essay stress! But it is all fine coz am on top of it, got an essay due in at midnight on thursday but it is practically finished so it is all fine fine!!! Since Ive been a wee hermit the past 3 weeks this weekend Im gonna party so if you wanna party come party with me!!!! Im well up for forgetting lol!

Um um um!!! Im in a horrible situation! My old job Graham Walker offered me my job back!!! Nooooo! I wanna I really do but I cant leave the place I am now, what to do!!!!

Anyho! I will update tomoz, pwomise!

Life has sooo many ups and down, so many that we aren't ready for. It really is quite unfair, the politics of life are bollocks! Whats this you always hurt the ones you love most....well Im through with that, no more hurt, physical or mental, Im sick of it and I should really start listening to my friends because they do love me and they do want the best for me....I deserve better, I deserve better, I deserve better....maybe if I say it enough then it will stick and make me realise that all changes that are coming to me are because I love myself enough, Im sick of hating who I am and thinking that it is always my fault, no one is at blame so how can it be my fault.

Think what you will, but really you will never know

Im having the girls up on Friday night for all who fancy!!! Get back to me, Spoon, Jeni, Kip etc

Heya! Sorry regards the neglect :( internet has been playing upand Ive had study :( boo!

Not been up to much, just getting the house in order for Christmas, clean from top to bottom :) dunno whats happening yet tho, may be here or I may be at my folx.

Got myself a new job :) Its maternity leave cover so it will only be a minimum of six months or a max of nine :) should be good, working for a company called McClure and Partners, another legal firm only this time its all civil booo! But by the end of it Iw ill have lotsa experience in most fields :) bonus! Plus, get this! hehehe! Bet you'll all hate me hehehe! Its 18 k a year, so I will get overa grand a month! Fantastic!

Been quite sad recently, on November the 29th I received a phone call to tell me that my old school mate, Ashleigh Harvey, had died. So I was at her cremation on Wednesday it was so sad. She was only 21

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Man, it is fucking freeeezing!!!!!

Brrr! Just had my tea and went out for a fag, fuck its cold!

Was a good night last night, Julie came up and stayed. Kris went out to watch the match and we stayed in and got a booze :) Its all good lol! We just sat and spoke shite about everything and nothing :) Kris came back quite gutted, sat up for another while and then we all went to bed ;) only playing lol, don't think she'd be into it heheheh!

Todays been ok so far, its gonna be a long one tho, got uni tonight 6pm-8pm :( I wish I could just leave it but I have tests and essays coming up so it is important that I go. May try and see if I can get a lift from Kris's dad. Its a real fucking pain the 119 and the 109! I finish uni at 8pm always miss the 8.15pm bus and then dont get another one until 8.45pm. Does my head in plus it is soooo fucking cold at the moment! We'll see we'll see!

Oh, tomorrow is my last day here and then Im back to hunting for a job :( I jusy want something criminal and permanent. I don't even really care about the wage to be honest, I just need work to keep the house running. Wish my wage tomoz Im paying the leckie and then I need cash for NIN (Kris said we will get them off ebay but I would rather pay £22.50 a ticket than wait and get them at like £50-£100). So meh! I need money!!! We are sooooo skint!

Well, Im gonna run!

Love you all! And gonna someone hurry up and update? I check lj every half hour and it never changes lol!

http://www.tickets-scotland.com/gigs.html

£22.50! I will be off on Monday for anyone that either wants to go into town to obtain said tickets or give me money so that at 8.50am I can start calling the hotline :)

How amazing! Think, Im gonna take Tanja, show her some real fuckin music...she listens to some shite honestly lol! Aww bless hehehehehehe!

Last night was ok, Uni was interesting, assault was the topic. :) Always intersting to learn about :)

Went home to a lovly cooked meal and candels by my boi, he made me spag pasta! I always make it and this is the second time he did and it tasted better, the bastard! lol! He always does it best! He's being so sweet right now, its weird, not fighting lol. Loving it tho!

After our munch we sat with Spoon, Gu3 and Beavis (Eddie came back later) and watched Family Guy and took some laughing gas, twas funni, hence the name I suppose but hehehe. Was amzing, all tingly fingers and toes and just giggly :)

Not up to much tonight, the match is on so we're heading up to Kris's dads to watch it. I'll prolly just take my uni stuff and catch up on more reading! I figure that its criminal I know so I should really stick in and get an ace mark in my first year :) loving it!

What is wrong with me, in such a fantastic mooood! Well that sorta spells disaster, Im prolly gonna go home and find that Jet smashed the door on herself....ohhhh!

Fuck, I forgot in my latest updates to mention. Charlie, our little kitten (you know what I mean, she was our baby), was knocked down a month ago yesterday, poor wee babe didn't make it. I really miss her, the little psycho :(

Aww, its sad. x

Hello just in work and thought I would give a quick hello and advise you all to go and see Saw 3, yes see saw....very funni...anyways! Yeah, me and Kris went with Gu3, was a good laugh hehe! We will prolly go again tho so anyone going give us a shout. Brilliant!

Work sucks I have soooo much to do then after work I have uni! Its all fun fun fun! Im just so tired and sore :(

ANyways! Im off!

Hello hello hello!

Totally forgot to say!!!

Kris gets his next loan installment on the 6th of January, we will be flying out on the 11th of January, me Kris, Reynolds and possibly Guthrie. Go on!!! I know you all want to come!

Dad just called!

Everything is cool! Rebecca will be coming home today! YAAY!!!

Hello!

Hey, my plane took off at 10.30am...nop, I aint on it....tada!!!!

We were due to leave for Manchester at 11pm last night, leaving with plenty of time so that nothing could go wrong. Hello! Its us, and it did, before we left. At 10.10pm my littlest sister, Rebecca, came in the house crying with what looked like the most DEformed right arm, she was crying and holding up her arm. her arm was straight but between her hand and her elbow was this hugh dip. Accident and Emergencey away we go!!!

Dad took her whilst me, mum and stinky Tanja waited. Hoping to fuck it was just a sprain (sp?) even tho it was soooooo obvious that she had broken herself in two or sumthing. At 11.15pm my dad phoned to say yup, its broken and that he was gonna come get us, take us to Manchester and then fly out with Becca in 3 or 4 days. Fucking heart broken, my poor babs, poor family, we have the worst luck EVER!!!!!

Sat about and waited, dad phoned again at midnight to say. "darling your not a little girl, so I'll be straight with you.....we are not going, Becca has shattered her whole wrist and it may take more than one operation and she won't be able to fly for four to six weeks" GUTTED! In tears, but couldn't be too upset coz it was my lil sister who had to go through all this. Dad says she blames herself for messing up the holiday, shes nine and shouldnt think like that.

Fuck its sooo messed up.

Dad came home at 1ish and phoned all the neccessary. So we are going in the next 2-3 months. My poor Becca, dad phoned half an hour ago to say that Becca was in theatre. They are going to manipulate the bone bck into place, xray, fiddle, xray, fiddle! If that don't work they she will have another op and they will place pins into her, but dad mentioned that they may need to do a third op and just slice her open. There is a 50% chance she could be left with a deformaty (sp?). My poooor babs!

So yeah, I head back into work on Friday and Im getting sooooo wasted after work!!! Gona sit with a cocktail and pretend Im beside the pool, hehehehe!

At least Ill be 21 by the time I go, YAS! booze!

Well, leave a comment, not because you miss me(coz Im still here) but because you feel bad for us :(

Hello!

Update? oh toooo much to say!

Just know this!

Im going to Florida! See you in two weeks! If you miss me, just lemme a comment!

Hello, hello!

Well, Im in work and just thought I'd update. I have been every so offen but those arent really updates. What is Ute doing, not feeling but doing!

Well, since I last mentioned I've had another 3 lessons in driving. I'm quite liking it and my instructer seems to think Im grasping it all rather well :)

Uni, ohhhhhhh, I got an offer to Strathclyde, BUT (and its a biggy!) I have to obtain 4 B's. Great! Im gonna have to work even harder and Im already studying every spare second I have, ain't got a fuckin life and it is REALLY starting to get to me. Im fucking 20, I live like a fucking hermit, and Im too sensible! I don't give a fuck anymore, pump me fulla drugs and make me likable and fun to be with! I have to wait tho, hehe! Have to wait until the end of the month and Ive been paid before I can go about being crazeee!

Been thinkin alot abuot uni, I think I'm gonna leave work mid summer. A little time to chill out and shit before I have to study for 5 years! Blurgh! Can't wait to be a student, Im gonna cut my hair short and dye it green, dark green :) Im quite excited, also gonna get my lip peirced again and maybe try and get a wee job in a bar a few nights a week. Oh I dunno, its all talk just now, but soon, maybe not! No more suit trousers for me! hehehehehehe!

Hello hello,

Well that actually went quite well, I didn't stall :) whoo hooo! Hehe, he drove me up a quite country road and spend 25 minutes explaining all the functions of the car etc then we swapped seats and I was allowed to drive. It was just driving in first gear and pulling over to the left and stopping. The only thing was that there were so many turns, being a country road. Was good tho, I booked another lesson for Saturday but I have a class on Saturday for pyschology. We're doing extra classes, we're gonna be doing an experiment and wil be working with stats. FUN! So I will need to re-schedual, blurgh!

But yeah, overall I really enjoyed it. My mum and dad said they took around 20 lessons to pass, so I asked my instructer and he said on average it takes 40! 40 lessons? Thats £680! Jeeeezo!

Well, Im gonna run, going to the flix wi Tanja to see King Kong...FINALLY!!!

Killing me!

I was in town today, not for long....with Tani and Becca.

Im now sitting here in the house again, cracked open a Beccardi Breezer and gonna get more booze, Reynolds and Wilkie called, they are gonna come get me, they've been travelling around alove the place!!!

Bubui

Well its tonight! I'm already ready so I could study untill the last minute. I'm halfway through it so I ain't doing to badly :)

STUDY, STUDY, STUDY!!! It is all that I have done!

So what has everyone been up to? I would say more but I need no distractions! Back to study

Well its been a busy weekend, well, its felt like that! Whenever I'm down here I'm always doing something, I love it! In Glasgow I do fuck all, just sit and I'm getting so sick of it!

Today was gonna make use of the extra hour I had by having a lye in, but that never happened. Didn't sleep well last night and I just woke up at 10 to 9 and couldnt get back to sleep again. I studied till 2 then I went to the flix with Tani and Becca. Took them to see "The Corpes Bride" (so I've seen it twice now), they liked it, always a good thing. I must say, its not a patch on "The Nightmare Before Christmas" but I must say that that must be fairly obvious to all before going to see it. When I got home I made dinner for my dad and pap (he came up again, he always makes such a fuss to see me, which is always great). Made them pepper stakes with pepper sauce and potatoe wedges. Yummy, since then. STUDY!!!! I better be getting smarter, I always struggle to take shit in and I hate that about me! This essay is hard tho!

Anyhoo, Im up early and Im gonna go to bed! Nighty, night all my pretties!!!

bubui

Hello all you livejournalers!!!!

How you doing? I ain't been up to much at all! Haven't seen people in AGES! Which is doing my head in but its as much my fault as I'm always tired and studying or I'm visiting my folks!

Uni is going well, already handed in my first synopsis for Psychology (Anxiety disorders) get it back next Monday. Fingers crossed that it went well lol! I was given my essay title for Law which I'm working on at the mo'. My title is 'If the law allows us to kill ourselves, why should it prevent others from assisting us? What are the arguments for and against making it legal to help someone commit suicide'. I know this sounds really stupid but I'm struggling because its something I don't really have an opinion on, I mean, I think you'd have to be in that situation. It's a tricky subject. Anyone got an opinion on it? Bit heavy for a Saturday night I suppose! lol! Got to hand that in next Wednesday! Fun, fun!!!

Work is good! Been there 7 months now, time flys! On Wednesday Sharon comes back and I move down to the St Andrew's Street Office up by the Barras and the District Court. Things work differently down there tho. I'll be dealing with more Solicitors as its beside the Court. I'll also be dealing with all the agency work, invoices and such! I'm glad tho, more experience and responsibility! We've arranged our Christmas night out, Cafe Gandolfi, quite posh. Really looking forward to it, Graham pays for the whole night, our food booze, then when we go out to the dancing, and then he pays your taxi home! Plus we get a Christmas bonus! Wow! I suppose he's a Solicitor tho and has been for 20 odd years so he can afford it!

Went shopping with Tanja today, was good, sisters bonding! Bought her a nice top from Hellfire and one from Kozi. Wish I had a big sister! lol! She's really looking forward to the BHG, gutted tho and tickets are sold out so its just me and her! Oh, I also bought her pink (washes out in 10 washes) hair dye. hehe! Can't wait to get her done up, not that into them but it'll be a laugh! Hope she gets in, she's 13 and looks 11, but surely if Im taking her in they will be cool! HOPEFULLY!!!

My legs are killing me from all the walking around I did! Think I'll have a hot bath, not right now tho, my paps in and I can't just leave him lol!

Ohhhh, sorry lol! I'm jumping about all over the place with events.

Last night when I came to Stewarton last night I went to a fun night at my little sisters riding club, was really cool! Seen Tanja and Becca really running around the arena. They are not scared! Really good at controlling their horses. They were doing jumps, Tanja done a five foot jump. I was impressed. I know this sounds really silly, but I'd quite fancy it. It looks fun, and it be good to do it with my sisters!

Anyhoo, Im off, love ya all

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